I could try to fight
but there's something in my eye
I must be going blind
but I think I've already lost my mind

it all started at grandma's house
we were sitting on the couch
and now I only know you as red
considering all the shit you had said
you're not telling me the truth
but it's fine cuz
I've got nothing left to lose

I lay back
I'm waiting
impatient
already, forsaken
a step forward
comes with warning
what could I do but ignore me
I met myself
down in the gutter
and I made her bleed
but swore I never touched her
She's crying
I'm angry
and I keep on running
protect me, control me
remind me all of the stories
give me, give me
every one of those feelings
fuck me and feed me
and then smoke me out
take me out
I haven't seen daylight since last Tuesday, but I wonder
does your tongue sweat spewing
tornadoes of fibs?
everyone is fucking sick of you,
sick of it

I could never
I should never
love you
I can't and I won't
I am your nightmare
alive and kneeling
I am your every mistake
kicking and screaming
I am all your bad habits
walking with two shaky feet
only keeping pace
with your tepid heart
and heavy breathing
you keep scheming
like a snake, you slither
and shed your skin
only to rethink
and grow out of it again

so now you wanna taste blood
but I'm not done with this cigarette
you're a bitch in heat
comin' off the street
holding still your placid face
just desperate for a warm and tender embrace

you needy little girl
I'm here to tell ya
you're not a needy little girl
you sarcastic sugar, sugar
leave your coulda, woulda, shoulda's
you precious baby bitch
I feel your hurting
but you don't need to be a bitch
you greedy honey fig
come back down a little bit
come back down a little bit

cuz now I've got you
but now you've got me
and I'll tell you when you're wrong
but I'll still hold you in my arms
you are full and safe here in my arms
© kelsee o