Time and again happened the same things
Sick and tired was I with crushed wings
Blamed for things not done
suspicion and sadism was always a fun
Not that I did not try to convert the confusion insecurity and toxic words.
Never was any effort to bring a smile and save a dying soul..judgemental, ego and introspect were kept as my synonyms.

You never noticed but tears were never my antonyms.
I could still feel your presence a dream left on your shoulder
The way I was protected and then crushed underneath a boulder.

I tried my best to let you know
Care love concern longings all I had I had shown
Still was abandoned distanced and saw no smiles
No calls ...No texts...No letters ...No longings for a while!

Tried again to listen somehow...all was vain and smashed into pieces never to be mended now.

I never knew ...this was your love or rescue to the past..
Past that you clinged too and kept me barred.

Never did you see how much I cared
Ruthless you turned no matter how much I tried never was I spared.
With last of my hopes kept calling to you
Thoughts I had many a times to escape this dream
Dreams that were dreamt with four eyes wide
Last of my efforts had I put from myside
Not realising nothing could melt your heart and you would never reconcile.

Not even a single thing you had for me to cherish and appreciate
Better it was that I stopped choking and reconsider only to depreciate.

It was time for me to see the facts...and see how much was I destroyed.

Still had my heart beating telling me the truth...love was the only thing I had coiled to.
Confound was I left to move on or stay ..finally left to the almighty whom I always prayed.
I will be positive and help us both said my heart to me.. Alive, Strong and determined was my key...
Thankful to my almighty will I always be.

© bikhri_kafirah✍