I had the strange feelings before
the illusions and the ones that make your heart ache
the ones that makes your soul wrenches in antagonizing fear
the ones that makes the hair on the back of your neck stand still
the ones that makes your blood runs dry and your soul shivers down to the bone
I don't know about you but I have being there before
the feelings of being beaten, battered,immortalized,chastised, scrutinized and even criticized by the implications of the ones around you
the hurt and the guilt of feeling backed up into a corner on each sides with your hope's, dreams, inspiration and aspirations leaving you drained ,abandon and nothing but on empty shell of your humble existence
I felt it like a lightning bolt that strikes me and sending shock ways to my core leaving nothing but the hurt , the lonely barrenness
then I saw a light shining from either side with the pure image of the Lord reflecting on the window
In that very moment I asked the lord to take me
In that very moment the Lord replied to me child I am here for you but that which you asked me for I can't fulfill it to you
for this is nothing to the revelation that i have in store for you my child
he said take the hurt,the guilt and the suffering my child for this is the pavement towards greatness and success in your life
This is the hope and the light at the end of the tunnel for there of in my father's house I have many mansions and I have prepared a place for you there from the evils that lurk in the darkness to protect and guide my child in thy holy ways
For one day you will see that this will worth the hurt ,the guilt and the sorrow cause for you I will do anything and everything to lead you to me my child
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