I hope you're happy now that you're incarcerated
I know I was an awful child
And I'm sorry for the way I behaved and
I know I deserved it, I was too wild
After all, I was always your least favorite child

And I haven't seen Minjun in ages
Honestly I hope he's trapped in a cage, it's
So hard not to cry when I see your face and
I know he used to smoke, but I think that he quit
Sorry, it's not his fault for the way I was raised
I just like to try and find someone to blame

Guess I wasn't worthy of love and patience
Ha-neul - my name - I hate that you were the one who gave it
Drying up my tears like a useless raisin
And anyways it feels like I'm always being rained in

But my best friends let me know I'm needed
Honestly I wish you tried and pleaded
When the police took me away
Did you really care at all?
Or were you happy that your burden was gone?
Every night I cried after we had that fight for so long

I kinda wish you saw all the people I've dated
They treated me almost just like you and it
Breaks my fucking mind knowing that useless fact
Honestly it's like a traumatic contract
Feeling like a cult, being forced to make a blood pact
Hope when I find my soulmate my heart will still be intact

And I know I can be extremely negative at times
But what can I say? It's injected into our bloodline
Hoping one day I'll find my special dime
Is being alive really such a crime?
Having a nice childhood, I'd have paid the world for
But messing with fate could cause another world war

After all, these days it's like having a normal childhood is a crime
So if yours was? Well then you're definetely lying!
Cause parents love to make their children's lives a bloodbath!
And make your life comparable to the holocaust aftermath
But pardon me, your childhood was nice?
Well I- ..hope you enjoy your life

Mom, I kinda wonder how you're doing now
Even though you turned my world into a rain cloud
Cause honestly, I believe that you could change
Although you'd probably rather go to a gun range
Is it kinda twisted that I miss the chaos?
Despite all the blood from you that I've lost?

Don't get me wrong, I love my new family
After all, they never beat me
It just proves how easy I would've been to love
But for you I never really was enough
You wanted a prodigy
And all you got was an anomaly
That's all that you ever saw me as

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