You say I don't care.
But don't I? Not even slight?
Tell that to my soaking pillow,
Wet with tears that I shed that night.

I do everything I can but still
End up disappointing the ones that matter.
Am I not worthy of your love? I ask
And your silence makes my heart shatter.

Have I not made efforts? I ask
But I don't have the strength to hear it.
The denial showing on your face,
I don't think my heart can bear it.

What's my biggest fear? You ask
Abandonment, I answer.
And then you leave me like I meant nothing,
Removed me from your life like I was some cancer.

How can I not become stony thereafter?
What am I if not the queen of disaster?
© Rishita