#WritcoPoemChallenge

~Dirty dishes in the sink, nothing but silence..
Waited as a witness, in my mind
To my motionless body on the floor , drunk and hurt , I ponder all these dreadful, sinful, self torturing thoughts about how she gets to trinkle her fingers along your chest, knowing that's where my fingers once belonged.

Have you forgotten , the taste of my lips at midnight?, and the late summer night drives?, or how about the smell of my freshly washed skin, when I buried my face into your chest?

or do you simply just try to replace all of me ,

with all of her?

a rather delusional thought
if you must ask me...

she watched and listened to my overactive heart and mind, as my friend,my family she was watching my life and mimicking the things I do to make you feel as if you love me...

she analyzed it all like a professional hacker, she studied my life like it was the most important quiz she had to acomplish in life , beacuse she craved what I had, wanted what I wanted ,
she wanted my life
she always did...

she saw you and me , and immediately went out to sabotage and claim my life up like casino machine hitting the jackpot , and she made sure to not share any of the winnings,

she took everything from me that day...

So now its just me
alone again , as per usual , but dont worry about me, as
I am quite used to people leaving me for something better,

so now I sit around thinking about you and me, our lives ,
and now apparently her,

I sit at old broken down benches with my bold ciggerettes pressed to my lips, freezing in the cold winter weather , hair turning to icicles...

》If only I would of known
how easily replaceable I was to you《
,...
I think I would have walked the other direction ,
I wouldnt have fallen in love with someone who breaks me
, everytime I lift your head above the water to breath,

I simply start to drown myself.

and as for her?

I dont hate you for wanting what I wanted, you best be making him feel on top of the world because
even though I dont hate you for wanting my life...
I surely do hate you for stealing it.~