I hate when people call cause I dont know what to say... "call me in an hour when I tuck the pain away. " And if I never answer, our friendships havent changed. You gotta know Im trying but Im filled with silent rage. My S.O.S is broken, keeps blinking "Im ok.." I hate when people visit cause my smiles always fake. I appreciate your efforts but Im not even awake. Silence pounds inside my head in whispers beeps and bangs..