Who said?
Who said it's easy to be a burden?
Who said it's okay being a girl child?
It's so much of a pain to bare being a first born girl,
Oh how I wished I was never born..
To see the cruelty of this beautiful evil world!
I wonder if everyone feels the same way or I'm just an exception,unlucky as others will term it.
It's always one from one miserable state to another,the feeling of numbness is the only feeling I've had in a long while.
I'm fading away little by little
But no one seems to notice.
Why do I feel suffocated? Why does it feel like my end is just some minutes away from me?
No one cares anyway,
It's definitely worth dying once than dying everyday!
I feel unwanted,I mean I am unwanted,he says to me
You're dumb, stupid,the biggest fool and an embarrassment to me,how did I even end up with with such a fool for a daughter?
Do you ever think before doing anything at all? You have never in your life than anything right, you're just useless! Get lost
As I turn to walk away,he raises his voice
Where do you think you're going, you're walking out on me while I'm still talking? He collides his palms with my left cheek before I could utter anything. I winced in absolute pain,
Painfully designed on my cheek lays the mark of his fingers,he looks at me with disgust instead of regret.

Slowly running down my cheeks is water,tears I meant,
What did I ever do to deserve such hate? Where did I ever go wrong that I have to bare the consequences all my life?
It's not easy to look for answers to questions that you'd never find answers to,sucks!
What do I do to escape this torture,these torments and taunting treating?
By eloping? no maybe by commiting suicide! That's the only remedy
But then what happens to my dreams,the promises I made to myself?!



© Yasmine