Sad to think I would have done anything,
Anything for us.
So blindly I trust,
in monsters and such.
And yet you ain't had enough.
Not till your numb,
another bump,
And your ego won't let it be done.

Pretend I'm nothing.
Yeah you take and you take.
Then lace up; you start running,
your still not here,
Bet your never coming.
Ha Cumming?
What a joke.
You think with your vagina,
and yet you "still claim your minds woke."
Lately your nothing but broke
A broke joke.
In a sinking boat.
Sorry your the one;
that couldn't keep your family afloat.
But I'm no longer watchin,
change the channel,
wheres my fucking remote.

And you Hate that you love me?
I love the love; but your hate?
It fucking frees me.
Blah blah blah,
I'm nothing?
Say that I'm a killer?
You don't want me?
Think you can be all you can be,
Be it without me?
Wait and see.....
Let's see how far you make it
without my heart and the wrong key.

I'm on repeat now.
Musical chairs,
You lost your seat now.
Lead actor of the show,
But I'll be taking the final bow.
Cuz I'm on repeat now,
Stains on the sheet now,
And you can't love without my heart.
Like you fucking forgot how.

How I'm the one you won't forget.
But I'm the one leaving the set.
I'm the one to keep you up late,
Your one and only; false.....
Life's greatest regret.
But not by my fault,
You see all you had to do was hit reset.
Swear your sorry,
just to do it again,
you don't repent.

I guess that's life.
I guess we live and some learn.
But what happens when you learn,
That you got skipped,
It's not even your turn.
You took advantage of me,
My charred pieces, ash from your burn.

I wanted to love you forever.
Forever didn't seem long enough.
But within a year,
Loving you just got too tough.
I hate that I'm here
I hate the thought of giving up,
But each day I'm beat down.
The road to your heart just got too rough.

I'm not a quitter, never been one to walk away
But yeah I'm nothing right
You break me down every word you say.
Then in the same breath
You asked me to stay.

So when you lie awake at night
Do your thoughts haunt your dreams?
Do you wake up in sweats,
When your thinking of me?
That's usually what happens,
when you draft us on different teams.
Cool and collected is your face,
yet your voice quivers.
And only I can hear your screams.

Our love it's toxic;
And runs through my veins;
Like an infection.
Finding My footing now,
I find solitude in your rejection.
Black and white,
Opposite views,
All different projections.
But when you look at yourself in the mirror just remember,
There was a time I wanted to be a part of that reflection.


© LaurenTarabori