Fake..
That's you.
Thinking I don't have a clue.
Russian roulette.
It's a dangerous game you play
My bullets await you,
I am gonna snap one day.
Standstill.
No movement on my part
Rest assured , It will soon start.

Inside I am empty
Numbness tingles throughout,
lackluster claims me
No shadow of doubt.
I give too much
You take too much
No more touch.
Romance laughs in my face
repeating nothing
no trace of love in this place.

I'm at a standstill.
Choosing not to choose.
Choosing to accept my fate and lose.
Are you confused ? (Says self)

These words come to mind
"if nothing changes, nothing changes"
Shit. F---
Powerful words I love to buck.
No time for Mr.Luck.

Standstill..I created this pause
You were the cause...
Agony beyond anger lies within
and change is coming
I feel it under my skin.

The days turn into weeks...
and still...
I'm at a standstill...
I have got to find my will.
Will to...thrive, move on, to exist
. to feel...to be pissed
anything is better than this.

Waiting...for change in my favor..
knowing it won't come to me, I have to seek and do..
Give me strength to change and renew.

We pretend,
They believe, you believe, I believe
we all believe...
the facade of our lies to protect..what??
What a tangled web we weave.

Standstill...
Time for me to change up
forget anyone changing
I have to
It all starts with me
a new lease on life
A new will....
No more standstill !
If nothing else changes....I will !














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