Twenty second of July, I read your Hi
Sharing notes, that's it . Now bye.
Funny talks on the app for a while
Your everyday Hello's became a stockpile.

You ask for my pictures
But I hate being in other's phones.
I don't want you staring at pictures of me
I don't want to be in your memory.

You say that you love me
And I believe you
But you never really knew me
And I never had feelings for you.

What is it exactly that you fell in love with
No, not the real me, It can't be.
You fell in love, harder and harder
With the idea of me in your mind's corner.

You say that I live in your heart and mind
I know it's just the paintings painted by your mind.
I said no, but you just kept on explaining
You just kept me draining.

I believe you, I believe that your feelings are true
All the time and patience you took to grew
The courage to express the feelings in you
I appreciate it, I really do.

I hate that you can't stop thinking about me
All the fears, insecurities and pains that you see
I hate that I'm the cause if it all
You deserve better than that, something better than the fall.

You keep trying to make me fall in love with you
Just because your feelings were quite new.
I'm sorry but it won't work
Cause I have always been in love with me and I hope you do too.

I love my life alone, with friends and family of my own
People with the matching vibes who know me close .
Being an overthinker, yes I have contact limitations
Seems like you just want to cross it with your explanations.

I love helping others and chasing my goals
But you took too much of my mind and soul.
No, I'm not into you. Why don't you get that?
You ask if we could be just friends but still try to be more than that.

I had to stop it, wasting my time on you
Who seems to understand only from his point of view.
I wish you could see that you are just in a love trap
It's where you can't see clear with the love filtered lens and cap.

I pushed you away, I had to do it
Hate me, curse me, blame me for whatever I did
I could care less cause I could finally be me
And may be you could finally be you without any of me.
© Tapaswini