Wasting time rethinking everything iv come to hate inside. Wondering when this hell will reside asking what if I had done things differently? Would it be possible to have had better times instead of these regretted times? Possibly.. but I'll never know and eventually I'll stand back on my own two feet and casually retake this casualty I created in me. Fight for what's left of me bringing hope back to my reality and not just for me but for those who never gave up on me no more wasting on what's inevitably happening.

-jay