I gotta get away from here
from all of the things i love
detaching from all of the
things i hold dear
caught in the headlights like a frozen deer
i surrender to all of my fears
products of my mind,
insanity is truly divine
i’ll sit back and let my story unwind
knowing nobody is coming to find me
deleted my socials
avoiding people who can’t find the voice to call me
protecting my Ori
because access denied shouldn’t remind you that you miss me
when i only thought of you, and all that we could be
i’m done over explaining
apologizing for loving too hard
God loves to bring me
the emotionally scarred
reflections of skeletons i’ve desperately tried to discard
doesn’t matter where i leave them,
trust me i’ve run very far
i’m a muffukin track star
but somehow they find me,
and i’m right back at the start
and i’m the one to blame
because i saw from which direction you came
and still found it in my heart to try again at this game
i thought the anxiety and doubt were unfurling emotions i’d stashed away
wrote them off as self sabotaging thoughts,
ones i needed to tame
all so i could feel the heat of what turned out to be an artificial flame
i wanted so badly to be in love, i forgot the meaning of my own name
Yasmeen
a Gift from the Sky Mother
an ancient lover
I have so many truths to uncover
I hold the key
Designing my reality like a frame buffer
It don’t matter where I go
my protections always hover
I can go through this life,
meet people and face changes
I’ll make mistakes
but watch how fast i flip the pages
Divinely Ordained exchanges
If going through more of you
means i’m passing my lessons like
clash royale stages
I’ll take you all on, like Ren and Jenessara did the Mages

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