I guess now I understand why all my life I've desired move away from everybody and get a fresh start ,allowing people see me and hopefully accurately understand and know that I'm not a bad person ,If you'll just give me a chance to actually explain and express ,if you'll just give me a chance and get to know me without the words that others have planted in your heart being the same words you form a definition of me around ,If you'll just take life as a whole "easy" ,if you won't make such a big deal out of such mundane things !
if you'll see that I'm trying and you're not helping by never seeing that I'm trying but always seeing my failing .
The words you said to me were not the most hurtful ,the derogatory words you said to others about me hurt more than you could ever imagine and here I am struggling with each passing day to forgive and tell myself I'm much better than the house chores I didn't do be it due to procastination or because I sincerely forgot , the misconceptions you have and so ruthlessly planted in my head as the truth about me ,if only it was my head alone but you went on to sow the seed even in the head of those I love and respect ,The child in me weeps for expression and to be heard , listened to and understood but that's too much to ask ,way too much to ask from people whose conclusions about you is nothing but terrible
God loves you .....I'll see you through Gods eyes because my eyes ..hehe
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