I feel as if there is no light

I feel that I lost my fight

For, I hope that I head towards the pain

That would help me heal again



I hope that the end is near

Going through all of that again is what I fear

I would give in to the dark to take my soul away

I hope that I fall again from the clouds someday



I find my solace in none and zero

In my own story, I find it hard to be the hero

Threatened by my lies that would tear everyone apart

Feeling like this ought to be an art



I hope that someday, I'll be free

from everything that once hurt me

It all got too much for me to bear

I can't handle this despair



Sometimes, all I think about is you

How the things you told were once true

All I want to do is run away, again

I would never look behind



Nothing offers me happiness, oh boy!

I offer myself the pain's joy

I withstand my greatest fears

while never dropping a single tear



This my life's last agony

Here, I lie, singing my symphony

I lie, thinking about death

For, I'm choking in the midst of my last breath



I find my solace in none and zero

In my own story, I find it hard to be the hero

Threatened by my lies that would tear everyone apart

Feeling like this ought to be an art



I hope that someday, I'll be free

from everything that once hurt me

It all got too much for me to bear

I can't handle this despair

© Anushka