I ran up that hill completely out of breath.
What have I just done ? I was scared to death.

There’s time to go back, he wasn’t even home.
If I turn back now, no reason for him to ever know.

But I ran away for a reason, that no longer could be ignored.
My heart in pain, but my anger it roared.

I love him, — so I let him go.
Was it the right decision, yes or no?
Did I give up too quickly, guilt is starting to grow.

I can’t help but wonder, maybe I shouldn’t have left.
The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, a blow to my chest.

I appreciate everything he’s done for me, and everything I was forced to see.
but I had dreams and goals, and those he decided for me.

Thinking back - I gave my life for him that was no problem for me.
I was ready to give it all to him — myself, my worth and my dreams.

But i couldn’t anymore, and he couldn’t see.
It was all about him, it was never about we.

He was blind to my attempts to make him finally see.
It was too far gone, to try to make him agree.

I blame myself for allowing him to steal what belonged to me.
I shouldn’t have to sacrifice myself for love, not to that degree.

I stand on the edge of the world, looking up at the sky.
Asking for a lucky star, to explain to me why.

Then suddenly my dreams they flashed across my mind.
The very dreams that were once so distant, impossible to find.

Suddenly in my heart I knew — it was right for me to leave.
It was the right thing to do, for those dreams yet to be achieved.

I tightened my grip holding the baggage on my back.
And vowed to myself, never to let me fallback.

So I took off running - with oh so much fear.
But with a mind of my own, seeing everything so clear.

I love him so I let him go, and it now made sense.
I will not be with him at my own expense.
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