Fear, was once my comfort space
My safe world. A place where I protected myself
A deep hole where my soul could rest.
I remember watching people dare and telling myself
What an outrageous courage they had
Facing their problems and fears
Diving in blindlessly
What a bunch of idiots
Yet deep down I had regrets
Thoughts that burned me inside
That made me blame myself
Why couldn't I be like them ?
Why couldn't I dare ?
Why couldn't I have the courage?
What makes me so different?
Over and over again
Making me sink deeper in this tragedy
I had fears yet I craved courage
A precious gift I missed
And I was greedy
So I tried, I studied, I fought
I held on to my broken wings and fled
Until I made it
I did my best
I dared for the first time in my life
And It felt like I was dying,
I was tired
Yet it had a sense of an unknown familiarity
A feeling of proudness
That's where I realised
That deep inside the fear I had
Was hiding a small seed of courage
One that made me decide my fate
From now on I'll grip this gift
As small as it is
I'll nurture it
Until I no longer need it
Until the day I can come and shout confidently
I did it, I made it , I have no more regrets.