I used to love to sit close to you, my head on your shoulder , all warm and cozy.

Now you seem miles away,

I often wonder where your thoughts take you,

I want us to be happy again, like we once were,

You hardly said anything to me in days, maybe longer.

I don't know for sure, I lost track.

It hurts us more everyday, feeling alone when you're right here next to me.

I can admit to you that I make excuses just to go cry to myself.

Did you know that?

Do you even care?

Even a little?

Why go through the empty promises of this dying marriage if you can't keep at least one?

So many promises made, so few kept.

Could you ever love me again like you promised you would so long ago?

Or is that another empty promise?

Do you hear me crying in the night as you're turned away from me?

Our bed feels so empty and lonely.

I've noticed You have been coming to bed hours after me every night.

Do you wait till you think I'm sleeping and won't notice?

I remember, when we would go to bed together, so we could hold each other through the night.

I always felt so safe and loved being wrapped closely in your arms.

Its been a long time sense we held each other like that.

I miss your touch.

Please can you tell me, What is it that I have done for you to turn away from us like this?

I ask myself everyday, "What can I do to win back your love and affection?"

Sometimes, I think back to when our love was new, the memories are still fresh in my mind after all these years.

We had the world by the tail, working together to make our dreams come true.

Maybe, we stopped dreaming for a while, maybe we got lost along the way and forgot what we were dreaming of.

Am I still a dream to you , or am I now the reality of what becomes when promises of young lovers are broken?

We are all to blame in that case, we all make promises intending to keep them until life gets in the way.

We forget to apologize and try again to keep even a few promises, but days, then weeks go by and before we know it, years have passed and we still hold that now deep rooted grudge that should have been set free long ago.

Before we know it happened that grudge turned to anger, then to hate and now its to late to fix all of those promises.

What if, we could start again and not make so many promises that we know in our hearts we can't keep?

Would that fix things or make them worse?

If I could go back in time I would keep only one promise to you... to love you always and forever .

If you could go back what promises would you keep to me?

Would you promise to love me forever?

Could you look into my heart and make that promise?

Maybe I am the only one dreaming ?

© twistedmama