A story about a man, his life, his failures,
sex and drugs, a rocky road til the end.
But as we all know, life can have its up, and its down times, pass us like the wind.
Even with the best parents,
that a kid, could ask for.
By the age of 6, was arrested, stolen bike,
a lost stupid kid I was, and there's more.
For years I waisted away selfishly, seeking, what I could not attain.
Something, anything to make it all go away, or even, hide the pain.
My life had become, like a roller-coaster,
with its many upsides and also it's downs.
it is surely to have it's twist and turns,
and, at least a few whirly-rounds.
Openly revealing some of my secrets,
that I have held on to, throughout my life.
from being a drug addict a absent father
a broken marriage to a cheating wife.
Can't recall most of my 20s, as its a blur,
my memory is just stuck in a haze.
With no answer of why, if I had to say,
it's probably from tweeking, no sleep for days.
And the older I got in life, was clearly,
the further, I veered of the path.
For I was blinded from seeing the truth,
I had to walk through the destruction,
before seeing the aftermath.
As I sped through my life, looking back,
there's nothing to show.
but failures, out of control downward spirals,
I would locked up in prison, or dead in my grave below.
And before I knew it, it was here
before me, now the punishment for my crime.
How stupid of me, I was an idiot,
they locked me away, for a fucking dime.
10 years, a long time to waste away,
being locked in a fucking cell.
The more sobriety I got, was the more clear I could see, just how far I fell.
My freedom now is important, but,
it's not nearly as important as my children, which will always be.
As now my children getting old,
enjoying my life as Grandpa, is all I want to see.



© David Lowell Eads Jr.