Restart

Where is the restart button.

This can't be the life I'm suppose to live.

I guess I'm not suppose to ask why.

I'm suppose to live and die.

No, I'm suppose to live suffer and die.

I suppose I cause this on myself.

I suppose my odds where not that of a peaceful life.

I suppose it's all in my head.

But no, its real.....

It's reality and I'm living it.

What it feels like?

Imagine a knife stuck in your back that comes through your heart and you're looking down on it as the blood drips slowly onto the ground

You feel it. You see it. You smell your own blood.

You look around and you see familiar faces, as a matter fact you see your family and friends and every one you ever met in your life.

You scream "HELPPPP HELLLLP" and everyone is just looking at you.

Some are crying. Some are smiling. Some are laughing. Some are angry.

You don't understand whats happening. You start to panic. You do the only thing thats left to do and that's too pray.

Our father which art in heaven hallow be thy name.... Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Everyone starts walking backwards and the knife is gone but you still feel the pain from where it was lodged

What's next?

It's strange but you rather put the knife back inside you.

You rather watch everyone laugh smile cry frown while you scream for help and no one hears you.

You start to wonder when will it all end?

© Ava