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Once Upon A Time
#WritcoPoemPrompt122
Someone has asked you a question,
That feels far too personal,
It's only a first impression,
You might be completely wrong and irrational,
when my life made sense
when it was me & my Team
went from 10 years being Mom
to 3 yrs waking up without my 4 heart beats.
When I come home from
a long 12 hr work day
My Mom and Kids smiling
always happy to see my face
then forced to say goodbye
to the Queen of My heart
Jan.11th 2014 my world fell apart
I lost the other half of my heart
My Mom My Best Friend
never thought she leave us so soon
I tried so hard fighting this battle
I was a single Mother
grieving her own Mom
in a cold cruel world alone
I thought I could handle it
at least that's what I made myself believe
no matter what comes my way
wouldn't let it get the best of me
only lying to myself
mental and emotional abuse
behind closed doors
reliving demons that only broke my heart
went from an alcoholic
two bottles to the head
but it wasn't enough to numb the aching pain within
Jan 2016 I took my first hit of Meth
If I could have 1 Wish
1 choice I'd reconsider
I'd take back the first day
I lit up and smoked the bubble
it was the first day
the rest of my life had changed
because of my selfish needs
my babies got taken away from me
have you ever felt that pain
your heart ripped from your chest
to watch your whole world taken from you
because of your choices it led to this
waking up without them is the hardest
tears pouring down with regret and disappointment
there is nobody else to blame
because of my addiction I lost my children
there is no excuses for those mistakes I made
I was a single Mother of 4 kids running from a Past Pain
Jan.5th 2018 they took my World away
I did everything to get them back
went to rehab I made it 13 months clean
but unfortunately it wasn't enough for them
I drank my brothers bottle and he found my cigarettes
July 7th 2019 he kicked me out last time I saw my Kids
it's sad what 1 wrong move can do
it's something I'll always regret
I miss my team my 4 heart beats every single day
since the day we parted ways
I've seen them once in 3 yrs
bitter sweet blessing I finally got to hold my 4 heart beats
it was a day I'll never forget
Jan 28 2022 only 3 days before my birthday
I held my Team in my Arms as we cried forced to say Goodbye
to the Man who gave me life
I know my Mom is finally happy after 8 years they reunite
a bitter sweet blessing I'll never ever forget
just love your family now every moment while you can
cause tomorrow is not promised
forgive be patient and leave the past in the past
enjoy every minute of every day
with your children and all your family
cause sometimes we don't realize the moments
til all you got left is the Memories
© Loata Moala
Someone has asked you a question,
That feels far too personal,
It's only a first impression,
You might be completely wrong and irrational,
when my life made sense
when it was me & my Team
went from 10 years being Mom
to 3 yrs waking up without my 4 heart beats.
When I come home from
a long 12 hr work day
My Mom and Kids smiling
always happy to see my face
then forced to say goodbye
to the Queen of My heart
Jan.11th 2014 my world fell apart
I lost the other half of my heart
My Mom My Best Friend
never thought she leave us so soon
I tried so hard fighting this battle
I was a single Mother
grieving her own Mom
in a cold cruel world alone
I thought I could handle it
at least that's what I made myself believe
no matter what comes my way
wouldn't let it get the best of me
only lying to myself
mental and emotional abuse
behind closed doors
reliving demons that only broke my heart
went from an alcoholic
two bottles to the head
but it wasn't enough to numb the aching pain within
Jan 2016 I took my first hit of Meth
If I could have 1 Wish
1 choice I'd reconsider
I'd take back the first day
I lit up and smoked the bubble
it was the first day
the rest of my life had changed
because of my selfish needs
my babies got taken away from me
have you ever felt that pain
your heart ripped from your chest
to watch your whole world taken from you
because of your choices it led to this
waking up without them is the hardest
tears pouring down with regret and disappointment
there is nobody else to blame
because of my addiction I lost my children
there is no excuses for those mistakes I made
I was a single Mother of 4 kids running from a Past Pain
Jan.5th 2018 they took my World away
I did everything to get them back
went to rehab I made it 13 months clean
but unfortunately it wasn't enough for them
I drank my brothers bottle and he found my cigarettes
July 7th 2019 he kicked me out last time I saw my Kids
it's sad what 1 wrong move can do
it's something I'll always regret
I miss my team my 4 heart beats every single day
since the day we parted ways
I've seen them once in 3 yrs
bitter sweet blessing I finally got to hold my 4 heart beats
it was a day I'll never forget
Jan 28 2022 only 3 days before my birthday
I held my Team in my Arms as we cried forced to say Goodbye
to the Man who gave me life
I know my Mom is finally happy after 8 years they reunite
a bitter sweet blessing I'll never ever forget
just love your family now every moment while you can
cause tomorrow is not promised
forgive be patient and leave the past in the past
enjoy every minute of every day
with your children and all your family
cause sometimes we don't realize the moments
til all you got left is the Memories
© Loata Moala
