As you didn't know
I’m a May Gemini
even though I had
similar life experience as you
but, as you didn't know
I grew up as a quiet child
truth unsaid
you can't blame or
complain everything
I did or what I made you feel,
truth unsaid
as you never notice
even though I haven't
talk as much growing up
but, I used to be around
neurotypicals and start
to behave exactly just like them
at a very young age.
Truth unsaid,
you never notice
how naturally popular I was,
since I was a child.
Truth unsaid,
when we were together as a couple
haven’t been honest with you
about my experience as an only child,
used to be spoiled growing up.
Since I was nine and a half years old,
that explains why
there certain things
it is hard for me to understand at times,
truth unsaid
there are certain difficult situations
you put me in
make me insensitive
and heartless at times.
Our break up wasn't mutual at all
what you heard what I said
about ending my life,
when you asked me
hypothetical question
about mutual break up,
truth unsaid.
As you never knew,
how much I didn't
talk as much as a child
it is hard for me to find,
an acceptable word to say.
Why do you have to tell
your best friends and other
people about it?
How Could You Tell Them
I Was Using You?
if you didn't know
who I was from a private
vulnerable place,
truth unsaid
even though both
of my parents never
experience being divorced
but, still went through what
you experience in life.
Truth Untold,
I was raised by a married single mom
because my dismissive avoidant dad
wasn't around often,
even though I used to be an only child
that doesn't mean I didn't have a younger
brother at all.
he was born in January 2006,
around the same time
Wassabi Productions
rise to fame and become famous.
Truth Untold,
use to stay the first year
in Redmond High School,
afterward.
I was about to go to,
the same Redmond Middle School,
about to go to the same special ed class as you.
That didn't happen instead,
I transferred to another Bellevue
neurodivergent middle school,
I stayed there for two years.
Truth Unsaid.
My family and I
moved out of our
second house,
we drove across
the 1-90 flowing bridge,
into a beautiful new Island.
That was when
start my first year in high school.
At first, everything was going well
my teachers were proud of me,
few friends want to hang out with me
never expect my high school crush
also want to be friends with me and
want to spend time with me.
And now when I look back
he reminds me of you,
both of my high school crush
and you just only want to be friends,
not being in a lifelong relationship with me.
Truth unsaid,
there are many volunteer jobs
pile up onto me inside and outside of school.
attended many choir-loaded Activities and all school events.
Truth unsaid,
I struggled with my
mental and emotional health,
all that pressure and stress toll on me
make me say and behave certain way
without thinking.
Truth unsaid,
after I graduated high school in 2014
ending my transition program era
around the same time since Roi Fabito
left Wassabi Productions.
Truth Unsaid,
before I met you
used to take the bus,
on my own.
Being busy with four
course classes, and busy
with my next language class,
out of the college campus every Saturday
being busy spending time with new people.
Truth unsaid
You never knew how stress and all the,
pressure I used to have
you never seem to notice these little things,
that shaped me into who I am as a May Gemini.
You put me in difficult situations,
where I am running out of patience
even though I didn't talk as much
but, I can behave as a neurotypical
to make you uncomfortable as an autistic person.
You shouldn't have to complain or tell anyone
or your best friends about what I did or what I made you feel you won't have these neurotypical consequences by me.

-Laura So
© May Gemini Adult