Addiction,

you have sent me reeling

headlong over feet

I sneak around and lie for you,

it’s important that I’m discreet

So nothing comes between us,

cause I need you around

You pick me up we dance,

twirl,

spin,

right before you knock me down

Addiction are you angry?

I feel strongly that you are

I scream at you

“DON’T LEAVE ME”

I wear your tell-tale scars

I mainline this cyanide

through my eager veins

Twisted sick compulsion

needles stabbing

kills my pain.

Devouring any hopeful dreams

that I could one day be

Someone to be cherished,

loved and truly happy

When I was ten he pushed you in,

hoping I wouldn't tell

Now we are inseparable,

depravity is where we dwell

Trust me I don’t want to feel this shit

so I stay high

Until the day comes to pass

when I don’t want to die.


Heidi Shavill

2013