I am drowning.
I' m trying to swim, I'm really trying, but I don't know how to use my arms and legs.
Every time I make it up a little, I get pulled down even lower.
I'm screaming, I'm screaming for help but nobody hears me.
Why can't they hear me?
why don't they see me?
I scream as loud as I can but they don't notice me. Every time I surface I try to show that I need help but they don't notice me.
I don't know if I've been here for seconds, minutes, hours or days but it feels like an eternity.
I can't see anything, hear nothing, everything is black.
I fight but I feel my lungs filling with water, I can feel my body getting numb, I can feel something pulling me down and that's the moment I realize I can't win this fight.
I realize there's no getting out, the water wins and I lose.
I know I can't fight any longer.
Why should I when the battle is already lost?
I stop screaming for help.
I stop fighting.
I stop breathing.
I relax.
I shut my eyes.
I let the water win.