A cold,dark and cloudy Day..
Sitting with Classmates and studying,
in middle Of studies,little talk Too..
Teacher Shouting on top of his voice...
I listening To the teacher's Explanation..





Suddenly The topic arrive of,
sadness and Depression..
My mind Preoccupied By sadness...
Present in classroom but,
Mentally outside And In past..





Thinking how depression is caused!!
The voice of Teacher Brought me back!!
I Asked The teacher!!!
"How Depression Is Caused"?





"Self Deny Can Cause To depression"
Teacher Replied With much
explanation and example!!!
I lost myself again in thoughts!!.





Although,I was in Class,
but Mentally i was in past!!
Thinking How Much my brother,
had Rejected himself,
how much my brother suffered
and finally Died due to Sadness!!!





my heart could not handel
my eyes Could not control its tear
They brust out!!!
my eye Shed it's Little Drop of tear!!





I wiped my tears!!
I acted As if i was bored in class..
I brought back myself in present time
But Again I mentally Went in past..





I again thought the same thing...
How much my brother,
Denied Of his Situation?
But along With Thought i remembered Everything my brother said to me,
Before He died..




My heart was heavy remembering,
Every words and action of my brother
my Eyes could not Control it's tear.
It Shed it's Tears again!!!




this time i Thought about
How much my brother needed me
during his sadness and
thus blamed myself for his dead!!
Was it Really my fault?





© Vidhyasha