what will I do
this wasn’t the plan
8 month old babe
and adding a friend
broke as a joke
weeping and tired
questioning everything
now at night I’m wired
panic and terror
the thoughts weigh a boat
this wasn’t the plan
I saw it and choked
two pink lines
on a strip as a jest
crying and shaking
heart of stone in my chest
supposed to be happy
maybe jumping with joy
but how could another
compete with this boy
how dare my body
do as it should
after years of torture
and being desperate it would
8 losses in
will this be nine
or will you come earth side
alive and just fine
don’t know what I want
this life is such pain
don’t know if I’m okay
to do this again
funny that way
life happens to be
just didn’t think
it would happen to me
© SKM