coffee and a cigarette
just to start my day
brush my hair
put on my face
trying to ignore the space
empty in my chest
encased
a wall of stone replaced
every beam once marked with her name
holding together my broken frame
I’ll brush my teeth
go away
to another place I hate
toiling through till bills are late
I need a leash
i suffocate
alone
the world weighs me down
while I’m collecting stones
getting stoned
THC come take me home
to a place a used to know
used to roam
because right now
my heart runs cold
my furnace burns for you alone
I’m sorry
but it’s plain to see
I couldn’t be what you wanted from me
I can’t change so I’ll leave
I’ll leave you alone

© JubilantDragon