Love hurts && your heart will shed tears..Feeling like you'll give anything to feel that safe, happy feeling again.......You see it physically disappearing......Slipping ~ losing your grip of everything you worked years to have..Years to get.......All the memories && adventures you two created...All the laughs && tears......&& all the exciting and terrifying moments that come along with that........Your watching it disappear and sad, you'll never be getting it back.......
Because this time you promised yourself, that's not a road your going back down again......To be able to be apart from me~so easily~ just means your not the man I want or need to have.........To handle and love someone such as myself....you need to be the kind of a man you were in the beginning......Tough but extra sweet when it came to me.........I need a man that CANT stand the thought of leaving my side....Not Switching up as much as he has in that few months of our lives...... Someone who is in it for life....no breaks and in-betweens.....
.... That's not for me....Hell no that's not for me.......This is what you told yourself.....but this time it's different....you feel it inside....You remember how it felt those nights he was gone..... So your love story being a Fairytale come true,hurt even more when you found out all that wasn't a Always and forever gift you had especially different,and just for you......it was a lie...A figment he created....He was never your price charming....He was more like xrated... That's why it's easier to let go...Its not that you want to...Its you have to...and you just finally know....He'll never change && you been threw enough, .
....you deserve much better then that....
..............So Your done, with this situation that keeps coming up.....Days at a time without laying in the same bed.... You'll never be ok with living that way.......Your not afraid of the moving on....You can always get another....A line that goes around the corner........But that's not what you want ~ it never has been.... You are to in love with him.....Always have been... Even threw the bad times....You want to be next to his side....Fights and all, he's the only one you see..... The future is going to come, no matter what you choose to do......But how happy you are, depends on what you do from here on out.....Either give it your all....Or stand aside && let someone else make her his wife...... She only wanted you.....But you weren't there..... So her only choice,and it's not fair.....Is to make a new life with someone who will sleep on the couch...... Rather then leave the house........On the same page and also good at living life together everyday.. Your love so strong it conquers all... its the love we used to have that I want back............but if you can't be that man...then please leave...
© SabrinaMarie