Heavy is the crown of stress
Strongly belittled for my incompetence
Wandering through life's labyrinth, an impossible test
My mind is almost never at rest
I sit back and watch from afar
Cause this world will never understand my part

Someone, oh someone please hear my plea
What is it - exactly - that you want me to be?
Cause I fear it's something that I'll never achieve
Sitting in my chair, guilty just for being me
Just a broken toy that no one needs
After all, I broke the laws of society

So here I glance up at the judge before me
Hoping, and pleading, that he can hear my screams
"Guilty!" The jury cries, eyes filled with endless disdain
The verdict, a reminder, of my endless pain
A life sentence, for being in a world that's too hard to please
I sit there.. and wallow, nothing to say as I fall to my knees

Silence engulfs me, this verdict's just too hard to bear
My autism, treated as something that you should beware
But it's part of me and I'm fine with it
They've trapped me in a cocoon, very tightly knit
Threw me in a jail cell for the crimes I should've never commit
Singing of discrimination, they wish for my blood to drip

Other innocent people join me and hopelessly scream
They love to see the desperation of someone who just wants to be free
My voice is getting raspy and I have bloodshot eyes
After awhile all of the fight inside me dies
So defeated and tired, I succumb to their game
My spirit, once vibrant, now a tiny flickering flame

The echoes, the crying, it all fills the air
But nobody listens, because they do not care
We have been left here, forever confined
Our hope of getting out continues to dip and decline
I swear I've been in here more than a couple decades
A few of the inmates have started to decay

"Did we deserve this kind of torture?"
I sit there and wonder the purpose of the pain we bore
The days keep on slipping by day by day
And we've all started to close our drapes
Sitting on the rust-covered pavement in shame
We've all ran out of somebody to blame

Some had a rope, now they've started to sway
Back and forth, I can't unfocus my gaze
Seems strange but it's kind of elegant, just like a crane
Why is everyone else's faces coloring drained?
It's such a beautiful yet chilling scene
Just like a ballerina, her movements are clean

The sudden sound of drums, a riot of the deranged
Why would you ever want to leave your cage?
When this beautiful thing is being shown on display

#autism #autismawareness
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