Ive overcome my fears
of being forever lost.
every moment of time spent
searching for myself in hell.

trapped forever inside this cell
serving a sentence for my crime.
that was committed that cold
December night of eighty nine.

ive went over it so many times
still the reason i always find
doesnt justify the tears cried
from the fear it left behind.

ive written about it in my rhymes
hoping one day to make it right.
i can't blame anyone but myself
for the time ive spent in a cell.

i could've done it another way
instead of chosing what i done.
ive come to accept this life here
locked up for twenty years.

i spent endless hours in this cell
sitting on my bed lights turned out
struggling with my thoughts of the night i changed everyones life.

i began writing everything down
in a journal to clear my head.
it's been a little over five years
since i was sentenced to life.

its no mistake that was made
but i really wish i could go back.
to a few hours before the fight
that took my everything away .

sometimes I sit at my desk
holding my pen in my hand.
spilling words onto blank lines
of this old note pad of mine.

some days the words just flow
like rain from the sky above.
slowly falling down onto the page
painting a picture through a story.

ive placed every single note pad
on the shelf above my concrete bed where they will remain always
until my final days spent in this cage

ive shared alot of memories
that we've made together.
even a few moments of time
that to this day brings me a smile.

guess ive said enough for now
maybe tomorrow ill mail it out.
ive wasted more time in here
writing letters i never mail.

you see thats how it always goes
when you have crossed the line
like i did that December night
when i almost took your life.

ten years of paying the price
locked up here inside this cell
where a thousand souls roam
with no where to ever go..




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