I heard they were gathered on the beach
They were just beyond the thin wooded walls of my shed
Laughing, speaking, swimming
A safehouse, a cage
I peek out through a knot in the wood at their unreasonable unfathomable joy
How can they laugh at moments like this?
They blow off their consciousness like the flickering flame of a warning lantern
Partaking in frivolousness while i choke down the truth
I stare down at the floor of dirt and sand coated red
I stare out at the sharp crashing waves of blood
I stare out at the incoming storm that hides the sky
I stare at the sharks with their eyes on anything, hungrily devouring it inside their head
Everyone laughing, splashing, drowning
Blissfully unaware of the danger in only the most menacing way
As though they chose this to drive me insane
I long for a fleeting second to partake in their euphoria
Even as they lay dying they can't help but smile
The sky grows darker
The beasts in the waves grow more excited with each piece of prey
Guilt pulls at me like the currents i see battling the sharks
They are a danger to themselves
I should let them in the shed
How could i even feel compelled to risk so much
And for those who could never listen
But maybe they're right
I could at least open the doors
Nothing could happen right now
Maybe not ever
Maybe i can choose to believe it's only becoming night
Maybe I'll start to believe it
There is no storm, only the beautiful moon shining upon the morbidly perfect scene
There are no sharks, only the little waves
There are no bodies, they are relaxing on towels, enjoying the rest of the night
Maybe my wounds are gone
I exit the shed
My feet step on a raised bar of warm, squishy sand, like the still warm body of a dead man
A perfectly permanent smile sewn into my face
They welcomed me like i never knew they could
The stars dancing like flames of danger, still so far away
We can dance another day
We swim in blood
We drown in joy
It's so much better this way


© A_Human_Bean