today scientists measured gravitational waves
from merging black holes
tonight my best friend is kissing a new boy
tomorrow the year is half over
i sit in the same place
and wait for the same thing
what it was starts to fade away from me
to laugh? to think, to grow,
to grow
that was it
it’s funny, i’ve tried sunlight and water, but i don’t—
i don’t see it
i keep waiting
the bugs outside will eat you alive if you stay too long so i
retreat into gray familiarity,
what some would call comfort, but i
don’t find it here

© starcrossed