Looking for love in the wrong places
Wrong spaces
My internal psyche is climbing up the walls
Can’t stay present
Stuck in the past
Thinking about all the relationships that didn’t last
I think I should of done this differently or said it in a better way
The truth is I could never make any of you stay
I’ve locked myself down
In a whole
Thrown myself into the abyss
My heart aches for my past
And yearns for a better future
I always wondered why I suck at keeping friends
It’s so easy to make them but almost all of them leave me
Possession of the idea of wanting connections haunts me the most
I’m so drained from all the constant trying
All these years I’ve yearned for close connections, true friendships, and for my love to be accepted openly
I must be giving my love to the wrong people cause I feel truly alone
Can’t find my way back home
I have family
I have friends
But I feel like I’m standing outside of my body, outside of myself
Watching my life pass by, watching through a tv screen
Detachment is a game I know all too well
Depression is a friend that’s stuck with me for to long now
I’ve always longed for more but I just don’t know where to look
I keep...