It isn't that my hands weren't shaking for a while....
It isn't that I didn't think of my parent's smile....
It's just that my longing to wander freely intensified....
Some pills went inside and I was free but my body died....

Feeling ecstatic that it ended I saw my body lifeless....
But this step of mine made everything worthless....
I carelessly broke apart the only world my mom knew...
And I shattered the dreams of my father which were due....

And when my mother came helplessly searching for me....
I saw fear in her eyes at the dreadful sight of me....
And she gently pulled me in to feel my Heartbeats...
She broke down pleading please don't leave me....

Then i heard my superman's terrifying screams....
Whose all the superpowers died along with me.....
He insisted me to get up and be ready for my dream destination....
As if that was the one and only hope of my salvation...

And then there were many mourning clad in black....
Praising me now who always talked behind my back....
But still I wanted to come back to my long lost life...
To hug my superman and kiss his wife...

And I wasn't feeling like a free burdenless soul anymore...
I left my parents with a life long pain in their heart's core....

Pain was temporary but my thoughtless decision was not...
Wanted to be free but endless guilt was all I got....
I gave up on life which held surprises completely new...
And now it's too late for me..but maybe not for you...!!

-Charu...❤️
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