Anger and Guilt, Sadness and Pain filled my chest as I walked away
Ran into my myself one snowy, and miserable day
We talked for awhile and managed to gather what had remained
Discarded what made me sad, the rest I had to rearrange
Knowing the World is evil and doesn't like me too much
But, loneliness made my heart feel strange
Wanting to share my weirdness with someone I might want to love
Hoping I'd be able to share myself with someone sent from Heaven above
But, just like everything and everyone here
And just as I was about to give her my heart
She walked away, leaving me alone, again not wanting to catch a solitary tear
Walking alone once again
I've come to not fear
Without sharing my thoughts and prayers with my wonderful friend
Unable to strengthen my Soul to finally Ascend
Alone and Broken this World prefers me to Descend
What was it that wanted my heart to mend
Alone I break, alone I pick up what shall remain
Should I look for her in another face, this thought I need refrain
What color hair she has this time
Would her skin be pale and soft
Would she be kissed by the sun and of the sea
Should she be tiny and fragile
Or thin and tall to make my heart fit and agile
At this point I have the understanding and finally succumb to the fact
It's something inside myself, a thing that isn't too appealing
A part of my Soul that somehow I lacked.
Sadness and Anger, Guilt and Pain are the only things I have in this basket. Without a Partner to place in a Casket
Everyone leaves like the wind and the river
Leaving me behind in the dark, as the Cold makes me shiver
Go to sleep, I tell myself whenever I'm alone.
To not think about the coldness that burns to the bone
Time to prepare for what comes to pass
Alone and Weary my Soul leaves this wretched place finally, at last...
© Dale A Martinez