I see you and its like I'm 5 again.

Five and waiting, while facing the wall.
Being scared, because he's older and tall.
Waiting there for my father to punish me,
Waiting 'til its over to finally be free.
Just because he got angry again,
he wanted to hit me,
so I could feel his pain.

I see you and its like I'm 8 again.

Sitting in my room with tears on my face,
each one drops faster to win this sad race.
Just scared and anxious, because I cannot leave,
waiting, because we're not able to live in peace.
Waiting for my mother to open my door again,
waiting for my mother to stop all her sulking.
Hoping I'm able to leave this room behind,
Unsere if this moment ever arrives.

I see you and its like I'm 10 again.

Ten and sitting at the top of the stairs
Listening closely, so Im no longer scared.
Hearing your screams as well as your threats,
until you finished so I can finally go to bed.
Listening closely so I could solve the fight,
because I knew you couldn't get along with it right.

I see you and its like Im 12 again.

Twelve and scared to death in my room,
hearing your voice, feeling like a broom.
Locked in my room, hoping to survive,
knowing if the door breaks, I wouldn't stay alive.
Just hoping and wishing, while being endlessly scared,
Being quiet and lonely, so you no longer cared.

© Julessss