Once asleep, it is a happy place I don't want to leave. So why is it so hard to fall asleep at night? My anxieties, hopes, and guilt cloud my mind and my body tenses. Once asleep I never wish to wake, but it is living that inspires the greatest of dreams. Truly living and experiencing the world around us will unlock the wonders in our mind. Yet I am stuck struggling between barely surviving and wanting to give up completely. I haven't lived yet. I don't want to give up before I get to see all that there is to see, know, feel, and be. I am a multifaceted human being with endless possibilities, I don't want to die without even reaching a tenth of my truest self. The tug of war between giving up and continuing to strive as I transform into someone I've only ever been able to dream about. Step by step I create my new self. Even as I regress, I move forward.
© Melika.Dream