Almost three years of being sober and clean
when I had a drink, I was bitter and mean
I drank a lot when I was stressed and alone
me being clean and sober, I did on my own.
A seventeen year old who struggled everyday
being judged because I stopped being straight
the years of abuse I struggled from within
drinking away the things they would call a sin.
A lifetime of pain that they wanted to deny
my sexuality and faith, I just couldn't lie
my first ex-girlfriend was abusive and mean
when I had a drink, I didn't wanna be seen.
Three years later and I'm fighting for my life
betrayed by those who still cut me with a knife
I'm clean and sober, and I'm here to survive
by writing these words, I feel so much alive.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire