Dedicated to: My loving boyfriend of a year


Loving you has made me afraid.

Afraid to lose,
Afraid to feel,
Afraid to touch,
Afraid to hold,
Afraid to care,
Afraid to fall.

You alone are my biggest fear...
Losing you is my biggest nightmare.

I never knew what love was--
what it felt like--
how it grieved--
why it grew--
where it was found--
not until You.

Love at first sight was not Us, not at all.
Never were you my type.
Never did I ever want you.
Never in my dreams did you appear.
Never daydreaming about you did I ever.
Never was there an Us. Never.

You pursued me-- intrigued me-- wanted me.
All new to me, all genuine to me.
You never thought you'd have me, but now that I'm yours... do you still crave me the same?

I desired your...