Real love!
We all had one at some point.
All rosey, is it?
No!
First love for me isn't all rosey?
I can say it was full of roses but the thorns never left.

Love!
Love just happens,
Never planned to welcome it,
Never felt like I needed it.
But it's love, it doesn't inform.

Love, is a beautiful emotion, beautiful feeling.
But love can be toxic, poisoning and venomous.

Love heals
But love also destroys.

I could say mine broke me.

Planning for it?
No!
Needed it at that point?
No!
Wanted it?
Yes!

It just happened,
And when it did,
It made me feel amazingly good

Found myself having different emotions at once.
Is it pain, happiness, sorrow, depression, anxiety, anger, sadness, jealousy, possessive, territorial, obsess, name it, I experienced it all.

But most of it all
Amidst all this ugly feelings, love never left, and I guess it never will.

Isn't it amazing?
Of course.

Love makes you feel different things.
Things you never felt before.

You find yourself crying because the other isn't doing so well.
You find yourself hurting, because the other did something you never wanted.
You find yourself submitting into the other.


Love!
An amazing feeling yet a painful feeling.

Love has so many ups and downs.
Sometimes the other loses feelings, while the other is still fighting for both of them, to keep them going.
Sometimes the other loses the battle, giving into the cold hands of pain, as the embrace separation from their lovers.

Is it hurting?
Of course.

Real love hurts.

Allah says, true lovers has to undergo the test of time.

Test of time!
To test the patience between them,
To test their love,
To test their loyalty.

In th end, the ultimate decision lies in the hands of the most divine and pious being to ever exist and shall keep on existing.
© kaya N