I fear I might O.D., a tragic end,
Not intentional, yet my path I'll bend.
It would shock me, as all around me,
Some will say, "A bad egg," but truest to be.

Some will claim, "I saw it coming,"
Pretending, they'll say, my heart numbing.
None of it matters, I'd still be surprised,
With my need for control, my true self...