It was "complicated"
Until it wasn't.
Good thing one of us understood
What was happening.

We were never together, but
There was "something" between us,
Some kind of chemistry.
Well, it did turn out toxic in the end.

How could I let myself get into
That confusing, frustrating and
Emotionally draining situation?
Why didn't I just walk away?

These questions haunt me years later,
And even still I have no answer.
The only thing I'm certain of is
How broken, hurt and drained I've felt.

Never again will I let myself
Be "undefined" with someone.
Either we exist together or not,
But never as something in between.

I will never allow someone to
Make me feel like you did back then.
In simple words understood by all,
You made me feel lonely.

It's great to see that you
Have no regrets.
It's nice to know you moved on
Without a problem.

I don't know how you felt then,
You never showed it directly,
But it seemed as though
You slept peacefully.

You didn't lay wide awake,
Wondering what you said or did wrong,
As tears fell on your pillow.
Or maybe you did, just not 'cause of me.

Nevermind, it's all said and done,
No use crying over spilt milk.
We're adults now, we were immature
Teenagers back then.

I hope you don't have any regrets,
I hope you found someone worth it.
The only thing I regret is losing myself
And letting you pull me into that mess.



© Emee


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