‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍‍There is a point in life where everything becomes dark
And everything that you did not want to happen...
Actually happens 
It's like just in an instant all your nightmares come to life
And things come to a stand still
Then u start to fall...
U see when I was younger I was so happy
And cared less of wat people thought of me
I was only focused on wat I wanted to be
And thought the world was a good and bright place
But somewhere along the way
I lost my smile
Maybe it was because I finally opened my eyes and had a glimpse of what the world was really like
    There was so much pain around
But everyone kept on pretending like it wasn't even there
..... Then self hatred came and I made it my best friend
And it's never been the same ever  since
It introduced me to this darkness I now call home
*But*
This home is a prison 
I allowed hatred and anxiety to move in with me but
I didn't Know they were here to stay...
Forever was not the plan
  I have tried chasing them away
But it's like they have  spare keys so they keep coming back
I just wish I had some time to change the lock
But. I don't
  So I guess they've won
And they will always have a place in my life
Loneliness is what I feared the most
But now I  embrace it
Cause I have lived with this feeling for so long
It has started feeling right
But hey
Don't feel sorry for me
Am okay
No matter what you say
Nothing will ever be the same again
And there is nothing you can do to remove this pain
I have come to the conclusion that all is lost.
© owen