do you ever get tired
do you ever get tired
of looking your head to the sky
and feeling its gaze
and wondering why
wondering why
you can't seem to fight
why your arm always stops
right before you strike
you wonder why
you keep it all inside
the clouds in your brain
still storming on
you want to go batshit
you want to get hurt
you want to feel the dirt
and worse
you know that you can't
you know that you'd cry
you know that you'd be hopeless
if you ever had to try
to fight and break
and bruise and scream
and use all the strength
you've lost in sleeping
sleeping and sleeping
where'd your energy go
you can't do anything
and yet you go
you go to the rooftop
and shout with your lungs
but that rooftop is fake
and those lungs are close
you keep it inside
and you continue to cry
go about your day
and wish you could fly
fly up and up
and never come down
fly up and fall
but never hit the ground
because you know
you're afraid of the pain
sometimes you just
don't want to feel again
and sometimes
it's all you want - to feel
to let it all out
to finally be free.
of looking your head to the sky
and feeling its gaze
and wondering why
wondering why
you can't seem to fight
why your arm always stops
right before you strike
you wonder why
you keep it all inside
the clouds in your brain
still storming on
you want to go batshit
you want to get hurt
you want to feel the dirt
and worse
you know that you can't
you know that you'd cry
you know that you'd be hopeless
if you ever had to try
to fight and break
and bruise and scream
and use all the strength
you've lost in sleeping
sleeping and sleeping
where'd your energy go
you can't do anything
and yet you go
you go to the rooftop
and shout with your lungs
but that rooftop is fake
and those lungs are close
you keep it inside
and you continue to cry
go about your day
and wish you could fly
fly up and up
and never come down
fly up and fall
but never hit the ground
because you know
you're afraid of the pain
sometimes you just
don't want to feel again
and sometimes
it's all you want - to feel
to let it all out
to finally be free.