Before I met you I never thought I was worthy.
So I lived my life recklessly approaching the edge.
I pretended to have no desire for love
But I feared my heart was just dead.

When You came and asked if I needed rescue,
I tried to hide from Your future rejection.
I feigned disinterest and projected boredom,
They were my trusted twins of protection.

Now just two scant years later,
You are the very air that I breathe.
But for Your patience and grace, God,
I wouldn't know what it means to be free.

I can scarcely take in the transformation,
I no longer recognize who I was at the start;
The day you showed me I would always be loved,
Was the day You resurrected my heart.

You healed me from fear and hopelessness.
Showed me real love doesn't come with demands.
For You never forced me to make a choice
Between being obedient or being damned.

You've proven Your love is unconditional,
Divorced from how I choose to behave.
Because You allowed me to find out for myself,
The joyful difference obedience makes.

Now I trust in my head, as well as my heart,
That You will never forsake or reject me.
And I know Your love will be endless,
For You are the God of eternity.

I'm no longer afraid to surrender my will,
For I finally believe all Your promises.
Confidently, I can pray for Your will alone,
For now, I understand who My Father is.
© Linda Troxell