We love and we lose. Full of pride and then regret. The emotional rollercoaster hasn't stopped yet. Many times we are forgotten or are the left over carnage of a little bet. Someone may be your world and your there first regret. You defeated the lion you only bought her the best. You sacrificed your ownself. But where still nothing in her head. You lived it like a life, she played it like some chess. She had been thru it before and hadn't recovered yet. To afraid to let you in she was emotionally dead. Her scares so deep but a weakness she would never let you see. Emotionally unstable was the diagnosis. But it was truly she was scarred so deep. She wished she could open up. But the label and her life waited for every dream. She would fall asleep smiling with you. Waking up leaving in panic and in screams. She wanted so bad to open up. Then came the fear and wanting to retreat. Her kindness had been taken as a weakness. It was always kept a secret it left her incomplete. You love her with everything and you just hope to see. You want to be her salvation. You feel like your a disease. So love sick and broken you fall down at her feet. Hoping that she sees your vulnerable and willing to set her free. Just happy for a moment and the smile you occasionally see. This life builds walls to hide we are trained to run and flee. When she gets done with you. That is where you'll be. Locked inside yourself. to afraid to peak. Do you try to work thru it or give up and leave? You believe her when she loves you. Life is just detrimental its hard to work thru you see.
© Kristopher Gossett