Sometimes I'm unsure as to how things are meant
Even when they're plainly said, they echo questions in my head
Was there a moment I was supposed to read in between the lines?
Did you mean it sincerely, or not want to feel like an option that was secondhand in your eyes?
Just some things that I think of,
I guess I'll never know
Sometimes it can be confusing
Yeah, it definitely shows
Probably because I'm an overthinker
I just like to look at things every which way
Explore all possibilities so I can prepare how I'll react and what to say
When the moments come I tend to freeze
Either that or I'm silent
Too many thoughts to pick just one
They zoom by like NASCAR, flying
I'm just enjoying these days
I don't know how long I have
I'm going to treasure every bit I can while it lasts
I'm a hopeless romantic
I'm not gonna change
I probably should, but then I would just be fake
If it's too much, I'm sorry
It's just me being me
I'm not going to stop or tone down my personality
I can't apologize for keeping it real
I'm tired of being something I'm not or trying not to feel
I'm an intense feeler
Everything with me is 10 times stronger
Sometimes it drives me mad,
but I'm also a healer
I like to fix things but some things and rules are meant to be broken
I'm just going to live my life, keep working on myself, and keep my heart wide open
If I close it off, I'll go numb
or just be really sad
I'd rather be happy, even if I'm drowning alive.
Is that bad?
Don't get me wrong, I'm doing so much better
I know there's a storm to weather
I'm just being me, it's the only way I can keep it together
Got this key in my pocket, and I refuse to surrender
I know I'm jaded, but that's all right
I've got these fantasies to keep me satisfied
& I've got these dreams to remember them by

© mistybby