THIS MORNING WHEN I OPENED MY EYES
I FELT SO COLD DEEP DOWN INSIDE,
AS I CLIMBED OUT OF MY WARM BED
AND FELT THE EMPTINESS TAKE OVER MY MIND,

I SLIPPED INTO THE ROOM OF WARMTH TO FIND
ALL THESE MEMORIES MAKING ME BLIND,
THINKING OF THE DAYS LONG GONE BY
AS I WIPE AWAY THE TEARS I AM CRYING,

I THINK OF THE MOMENT I CARRIED MY MOM
TO HER FINAL PLACE IN THIS LIFE,
IT STILL BREAKS MY HEART TO THIS DAY
HOW I LEFT HER THAT NIGHT,

KNOWING HER TIME WAS NEAR
AND I JUST HAD TO HAVE THAT BEER
INSTEAD OF LETTING HER KNOW HOW MUCH I CARED
I JUMPED IN THAT CAR AND PULLED AWAY

AND NOW I FOREVER PAY INSIDE
WITH THESE ACHES I CAN'T ESCAPE
FROM THAT ONE SENSELESS NIGHT
I DECIDED TO DRINK AWAY THE TIME,

LATE LAST NIGHT I LAID IN BED THINKING ABOUT
ALL THOSE WE LOST IN OUR LIFE
AND IT HURT SO MUCH INSIDE
TO FACE ANOTHER DAY IN THIS LIFE,

WITH ALL THESE MEMORIES OF THOSE GONE
FLOWING SO FREE IN MY MIND
I WRITE TO FREE THE PAIN
BUT LET ME TELL YOU TRUE, IT HURTS SO DAMN BAD INSIDE,,

AS I COME TO FACE ANOTHER MOMENT OF TIME
FIGHTING ALL THESE MEMORIES OF MINE
SOME WAS GREAT I ADMIT
BUT IT'S THE SAD ONES I CAN'T ESCAPE,

THEY ALWAYS COME BACK TO BLOCK OUT
ALL THE HAPPY MOMENTS SHARED WITH YOU
THAT ALWAYS BRINGS THOSE LITTLE SMILES
THAT MAKES OTHERS WONDER WHATS GOING ON,

I SIT HERE THIS MORNING ALL ALONE
WRITING OUT THESE THOUGHTS I HAVE GOT
HOPING IT'LL FREE MY MIND
OF ALL THE PAINFUL MEMORIES I LEFT BEHIND,

SO AS THE SUN BEGINS TO SHINE
ON THIS FIRST DAY OF THE NEW YEAR
THAT I CAN SOME HOW FIND A MEMORY OF YESTERDAY
THAT BRINGS THAT SMILE TO MY FACE,

TEARS FALLING SO FAST
I WONDER IF IT'LL PASS
THIS MOMENT I AM CRYING
FROM MISSING YOU IN MY LIFE,,,,,

I MISS YOU MOM, DAD, MACK, GINA, CARL,,CINDY. KATHY AND RICKY.
I KNOW EACH OF YOU ARE UP IN HEAVEN  WITH NO MORE PAIN,
SPREAD THOSE ANGEL WINGS AND FLY ACROSS THIS OPEN SKY
TO WATCH OVER ALL OF US IN THIS LIFE,,,
LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU,, IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME ANY MORE WITH OUT YOU ALL HERE,,

WITH ALL MY LOVE AND CARE I MISS YOU ALL......
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