If only... I knew my path I could ascend to solace an absolute.

For a clean mind thats not half baked, a future of value I could create.
Melancholy thoughts linger in my lobe, echoes of past suppression, memories I wish I could re-wind, redo, make new.
Seasons change, time is reference not existence, the meaningful memories I keep close. The pain I keep hidden.

If only... I would breath life into myself in the past of dark thoughts, give excelsior of encouragement and splendor to fulfillment like ecstasy the mind, body, and soul.

If only... I could focus on the future, second star to the right, straight on till morning. Focus on the goals and dreams till im soaring.

If only... i could find a person of similar energy, a kinda girl I could look at like a deity. A face of an angel and a heart of gold, unafraid of being herself with me, confidence, for laughter is a way to someone's heart, experiences together build the bond, one thats lasts far beyond expectations. Meaning beyond oneself. Two wholes that would be so bold to be one.
I'm sold.

If only... if only.

© Raven Siyeh Maitland