There's a colorful tulip in my heart,
Living since March and hiding her cup-shaped petals of endearing spark.
This bulbous spring flower has given me a rainbow,
In a manner born, she even painted my ever-appealing halo.
This tulip is the only person, where I caught my fragile heart rattles,
Mesmerized by her blooms and all the little things about her helping me to face all my silent battles.
This tulip inside of me told me to be strong,
I found the courage to wake up every crack of dawn in my lonely and dingy bedroom.
This tulip in my heart has created my sumptuous smiles,
Brought the first light of the sunrise that made everything shine even my little teary eyes.
With this single tulip, I wouldn't ask for more,
But I don't wanna hide her forever,
So I asked her to go out with me and finally meet my mother and father.
As the crows flee from incoming heavy rains,
Whereas the wind from the south sent a heartbreaking silence,
'was left bemused in an instant, For the very first time I felt empty that is so intense.
I asked her why.
I told her that I wanted the field of dandelions where the white birds fly,
I want the mountains, rivers, the other flowers and all...
Yes, I want the whole world to know about her.
"I don't want the whole world to know about me,
All I want is to live and love you privately,
It's not a secret I know,
But the only thing that matters is you already have me and forever, together we'll grow",
In the softest and angelic voice that's what she said,
I played it repeatedly like my favorite love song in my bed,
Even so, I don't want to spend another sleepless night,
Knowing that she's in my heart and yet it feels like I'm the only one who's willing to fight.
Days, months, and years passed,
She's still the tulip in my heart.
She doesn't want the world to know about her,
For the fact that she's an introverted person.
I forced her to go out and besmirch and misunderstood in summer.
She started to hate herself the way she looked at the broken mirror.
She has a few likes and 15 Instagram followers,
Unseen messages and no updates stalking in green with envy towards the other pretty flowers.
We always have time for one another, We even count the stars from our sparkling night sky,
Where she lays on my shoulder leaving me only with a heavy sigh.
Days and weeks has spread their wings and fly,
Like birds in rusty cages left the door open seeing only the clear blue sky.
Weeks to months she learned to hang out without any reply.
I ignore the screaming paranoid in my windowpane,
Gazing into the lip of the wine glass with her red lipstick stain.
Crowded streets and city lights,
Never fail to fascinate and astound my lonesome nights.
Yet on the other side,
I saw my comely tulip
On how she tilted on her knees where her vibrant pigmentations died.
Oh! God, wish I never forced her to leave my side,
How I wish I never let her walk out from my heart,
Because of me, she loses all her sparks.
It carries awful thorns into my lungs every time I see her losing herself from the smoke and fog.
It hurts me a lot every time I see her drinking the poison in her mug.
I wish I was lying,
But that's the awful thing about knowing.
Knowing something that will stop your heartbeat from breathing.
Until then the calm in August had turned itself into misery.
She flies away like a white dove leaving her favorite tree,
Setting herself free.
I hope she'll fly again
Back to me.
She was my tulip,
And she'll always be.

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